This has been a whirlwind of a 2009
I have been sick and in constant pain for more than a year
I decided I was going to TRY to live life anyhow, and for me, I saw huge successes amongst the struggles.
In January I started school again, College was not easy for me since my pain does not allow me to sit or stand for long periods of time without movement.
I took 3 classes, Anatomy and Physiology (the school I went does this as one class most universities do it in 2-3 semesters)
I struggled like crazy to pass this class, missing a week from my Emergency Room run did not help in any way, but I got a 2 week reprieve since Easter was around the corner...nice recovery time, but missing that one class hurt big time.
I wound up struggling to carry a C- all semester, then at the end, Wowzers, I did it, I only needed to average a 70 on the final two tests to get a C without the minus...but I was thrilled when I checked grades, I got a C PLUS, yes, I did, I screamed, raised my pressure and made my self sick, but it was good to be sick cause I was happy not cause I had some stress that set my system off.
I was perfectly happy to go rest, I had NO plans on the agenda, we were done and it was ok to feel weak and worn down I had done it, I passed A&P in ONE class...yes, I am proud, with the fact that my memory has been getting significantly worse as my pain increases my brain power seems to be decreasing...hopefully we will be able to see pain management soon though.
I passed my other two classes with A's I had Medical Terminology (kinda an easy class for someone with all my medical problems), there were only 2 chapters where I did not see the specialist that was covered, that made me sad, but still, it was an easy A.
The other class I took was Business Communications, a required class for most majors...I learned alot, mostly confidence from this class.
I thought at first it was going to be AWFUL, it was speeches and papers, neither of which I like...but I made it.
I got a great teacher who really felt that the learning was more about the experience than the assignment, it was a practice class for the real world, by doing the work, and having perfect attendance, I got an A there too, if I had missed a class I would have had an A-
It was in this class that I went to class so sick I could not function and went to the hospital AFTER class, that day I got my spinal tap and have been functioning about 20-30% better ever since.
Also during this semester, I applied for and was approved for disability. PTC is very damaging to the medical resistant patient, my neurologist wants me to have surgery but the surgeons say I am too high risk and so we wait.
Currently, I am doing my follow up and maintaining a minor drug regimen ( I have muscle relaxants and pain meds that I take when the pain is unbearable, and an anti anxiety muscle relaxant that I take nightly to help me sleep through the pain, plus my B12)
I am still planning on staying in school, I will be taking 3-4 classes next semester depending on how I feel when registration rolls around. My goal is to get enough pain relief where I can get through my certificate program, but if I can't pass the physical, I will switch back to HHIT which I could then potentially do from home or part time or if I improve enough, full time.