Wednesday, February 27, 2008

STOP, I want it all to stop

Ok, I got some test results back, not all of them, but the blood results, my sugar was a bit high, not high enough for diabetes, but because of my lack of eating my nurse is going to bring me a diabetic diet anyhow, she said it will probably help boost my metabolism and help actually lose weight.

I think that yesterday was the first time I actually talked to my nurse about any real concerns I had, probably because it was the first time I didn't have the answers already, my doctors do a pretty good job of answering what I ask.

The other two were normal, thyroid (always has been) and Cholesterol, that makes me happy seeing how I really was not wanting to fill the meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and something else, that I can't remember. There were about 9 scripts they wanted me to get, and most were cardiology meds that the cardiologist told me I really didn't need, so they tested to make sure. I am relieved as most don't come in generic, and I don't have prescription coverage yet.

In other news, the PTC is getting the better of me and I will have to talk to the docs next week about going back on meds, the headaches are growing exponentially in magnitude and its getting almost as bad as when I was first diagnosed. I know its for God's glory, I just really want to know WHAT he has in mind.

I guess I may never know his plan, but I do know it will work how its supposed to no matter what.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Life's Not Fair

Ok, Most adults know that, but that has been the resounding phrase in my house the entire month of February.
From DH complaining about my mom being here to help with Lauren, to Lauren complaining about almost anything, to me whining in response to all of them by screaming at the top of my lungs, if Life was fair, I wouldn't need a walker.

Either way. Life isn't fair, No where Have I ever seen something saying it was supposed to be either. Even though life isn't fair, there are still lots of things we can learn from it.
I have learned in the past month, that everything happens for a reason. I learned that not always are we going to know what that reason is.
I learned that people care about me, even some that I didn't realize did.
I learned that I am a part of the GREATEST church in the WHOLE entire world.

What are you learning from the situations God has privileged you to go through?

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." James 1:2-3

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Things are Improving

Although its going to be a long healing process, I am seeing a lot of improvement.

Monday night, after getting quite lost and frustrated (Southfield needs to light their city at night) I had my sleep study done. Hopefully I will have the results by the end of the week. According to the tech though, he said it looks like I have what would be classified as Moderate Sleep Apnea. This means I will likely have to make another trip to the sleep lab to program a CPAP. I am not thrilled in the least, but I will be waiting for the results anyhow. I don't see the Doctor til March 5th (a busy day since I see the neurosurgeon in the morning first)

Tuesday morning I had the two hour Glucose Tollerance Test, Lauren did so well sitting for 2 1/2 hours in a waiting room. My fasting glucose was really good, only 98, but now we wait on the rest of the results, should get those by the end of the week too.

That brings us to Today. The Physical Therapist will be here in about an hour, the occupational therapist in about 2 hours, but today is my first day with just Lauren and I here alone for the day.
She has been such a huge help to me. I am so proud of that little girl. She has taken so much responsibility with me using the walker. Even though I can do a lot on my own now again, she is helping with things I can not do. She is not even complaining.
We aren't getting a lot of school done except lots of reading but I am sure that will change soon enough as I heal more.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Roller Coasters are not always Fun

Today has been an emotional roller coaster. Doctor this morning wasnt horrible. She was actually pretty nice. Scheduled a sleep study and glucose tollerance test, Monday night and Tuesday morning respectively.

I am just tired of all the appointments and everything else going on right now.

God has not given a spirit of fear, but he has given unto us a spirit of power, a spirit of love, and a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

I need that sound mind right now to get through this.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008


Well, I have been home for 5 days, have had two doctor appointments (one more at the end of the week)
I got my staples out discovered part of the problem with my shunt and learned that the doc did NOT know I had been readmitted.
We are going to be checking some medical reasons as to why I can't lose weight, the three docs will be working together on this.

The Headaches are really really bad lately. I guess I should have been prepared for that when I learned he was only able to take it out, but we may replace the shunt at a later time if we ever get the weight off.

God has been good, I am getting strength back in my right leg, church is going to be helping with finding someone who needs a job to help me clean (my father in law is planning on paying for it)
The Physical Therapist and Nurse are scheduled to be here in the morning. Looking forward to the evaluations to see whats going to happen from here.

Overall, Trying to remain positive seems to be the biggest battle, for ALL of our family. I am healing well, my blood pressure is good, my heart is good, and I am happy since I feel like I will be getting better soon.

Friday, February 8, 2008

What a Journey

Never pray for God's will unless you are capable of accepting WHATEVER that may mean.

This has been one ROUGH Ride. I came in Friday a week ago to have a simple back surgery. My neurosurgeon was a very trusted doctor, now I dont trust ANY medical professionals.

I came out of surgery not breathing properly and in excruciating pain. They sent me home anyhow, oh ya, and I had NO use of my legs.
Saturday, I called the hospital, and they had me come back, they put me on some heavier duty pain meds, anti nausea meds, and then I collapsed as they went to send me home again.

Ok, this is where it gets fun. On Sunday night they admited me to 5th floor I was a bit stressed, in LOTS of pain, and given lots of pain and nausea meds. Too much actually on Monday I had a heart attack from the overdose. My pain was still really bad, but now I was off the pain meds because they didn't get along with my heart.

Tuesday they transferred me to the second floor where I was for the next several days, They had me on lots of heart monitors and sent me for lots of tests, it was touch and go and very scary not knowing what was happening. Last night I was finally transferred out of Progressive care and back to a regular floor. This morning they totally freaked me out telling me that they wanted to admit me to a rehab facility for 2 more weeks. I am hobbling around nicely now. No, its still not easy, but I REFUSE to be admitted to Rehab. I will walk. I will get through this, and I am not staying in this mad house another night.

I have met several really wonderful people, gotten to tell them how wonderful God is, got to talk about homeschooling even met a lady who lives literally RIGHT down the street from me. How cool is that.

God was looking out for me, but its definitely been a rough ride.